Day 7: Just me and some unwritten words

So today is officially the last day of the first week of this project. That means I have 51 more weeks to go. I woke up this morning slightly sad from the events of the night before. There had been drama in my household and I was just so worn out from it. Well this morning I woke up in time to actually get ready for the day but I honestly did not feel up for it. Well by the time I got to school the day had actually been going great.

First period was actually okay, we registered for our speech class. Second period had me feeling much better about the day. And third period was the same. Fourth period was okay and I actually felt very accomplished due to the fact that I was able to finish my animation. The rest of the day went quite well until the pep rally rolled around. Now usually I am one of the most upbeat, spirited people at these events, but not today. Today I was actually qiute sad. This was due to some text messages I had recieved. They honestly hurt me. The day seemed to just drastically change in an instant. I was still able to work up enough spirit get me a spirit stick which made me grin for a moment. After the pep rally I headed to work.

Gosh, I think I am truly begining to live for those few hours I spend at the daycare. These children are so great. It seems like they always know when I am having a bad day because they always run up to me and greet me with a hug. I love it. Today I was greeted with five hugs, it was amazing. Well after a while my boss needed me to run her an errand real quick so I hopped in my car a drove over to her bank. Here is where my day just hits rock bottom....I saw (HIM). I felt my stomach just drop, it felt like it had literally dropped from my body. I hated it. I miss him when I have no reason to. I still want him when I know that it is impossible. I think about him when I know he should be the last thought I should ever think. I'm completely irrational when it comes to him and I don't like it at all. I guess it is safe to say I like the guy. Its a real fml situation. As I was driving back to the daycare I just concentrated on the road. I got back and began cleaning so I could head home.

As I was leaving my mom texted me and informed me I was going to have to bring Jaiden home with me because she would not be back in time. I went and grabbed her and buckled her in. From the daycare I drove over to Breanas house because I just needed someone to talk to and I know I can always depend on that amazing girl. She rode with me to get Jaiden some fries then we drove around town till I took her home. We sat in her driveway for probably 30 minutes. I love our driveway discussions. I miss having them all the time. From her house I went home for a few minutes to get somethings so I could head to my grandmas. Once arriving here I waited around on the computer to start working so I could write my paper for Mr. Bill. It is a paper about what poetry means to me. The picture I am using for today is one idea I had for the paper. I will not use that version because it has nowhere near enough detail or length. But I did like the bluntness of it. But I guess I need to try to focus on that paper so until tommorrow....its just me, unwritten words, and you on my mind.